《好朋友只是朋友》 - 郁可唯

Dreams

人因梦想而伟大吗？
我的梦想说简单不简单，
但也不会太复杂，遥不可及。
纠结在心里的，你知道吗？
我想一起听林俊杰的演唱会。
一起到新加坡外的世界探索知识。
拍一部感人肺腑的电影给我爱和爱我的人。
世界虽然不会因为我而停止旋转，
事物也不会暂停脉动，
但能不能如电影所描述的，
让世界因为有我的存在而有些不同。
我的世界的定义过于混乱，
到底这一切是为了谁呢？
是你吗？
沸腾的心情有谁看见...
我需要一个答案。
引导我走向未来的路。

Holiday

Talking about holiday before the exam even end.

Anyway will be overseas from 4th Dec onwards.

Trying out something cool.

If you want to follow me and watch the snow there,

click on this:

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/dessimondo

and type: desmondser

for the password.

To know when i will be online, check out my tweets or facebook.

That's it, see you all after exam and holidays!

I'll be back for NS enlistment and CNY.

Touching story

在一次兩人共進晚餐的夜晚

女孩跟男孩提出分手的要求..

男孩起先楞了一下．然後默默的接受了....

女孩說我們還是好朋友

男孩說:恩~對呀~只要你有任何困難我一定會幫你的..

然後像平時一樣傻笑..就這樣..平靜的吃完他們的最後一次晚餐

之後男孩還是每天打電話給女孩..

問他過的怎樣?

回到家了嗎?

吃飽了嗎?

女孩雖然覺得奇怪但也沒問．理所當然的接受男孩的關心

直到那女孩在一次遷怒的情況下對那男孩說:那跟你沒關係!!

男孩淡淡的說:抱歉~打擾了

原來那女孩和他現在的男友吵架了．可憐的男孩成了出氣筒..

隔了一天女孩就沒接到男孩的電話了

女孩覺得奇怪..但也沒多想..

又過了幾天男孩還是都沒有打給女孩

女孩心想:搞甚麼?才念他兩句就給我耍脾氣真是的

算了~到底是我理虧我打給他好了.順便．告訴他男生別這麼小氣~~

女孩打了半天沒人接就算了還暫停使用勒~

女孩開始覺得奇怪了....

跑到男孩的公司找男孩．但是男孩的同事說那個男孩早就離職了

男孩的老闆是男孩的好朋友於是..那個女孩就問他那男孩去了哪呢?

他老闆說:我不知道我也在找他呀!?

女孩不死心.打電話去男孩家.男孩的家人說男孩出國了

女孩心想奇怪了

男孩的家境並不富裕怎麼可能讓他出國呢?(事實上男孩的家境也是女孩跟他分手的原因之一吧)

再說他要出國就算沒告訴我...他的朋友也都該知道吧?真奇怪????

滿心懷疑的她帶著滿心的疑問回到家中...

突然發現它的信箱裡有一封信!

她打開來看...是男孩寫的信..

這下她確定男孩的確離開台南了..只是沒有說去了哪?

可惡的豬頭~~走也不會說一聲~~

從此以後雖然女孩沒再見過男孩...但是總會定期的收到男孩的信

特別是重要的日子..如女孩的生日時他會祝她生日快樂並附帶禮物..情人節時也不忘祝她幸福..和鮮花聖誕節更是不用說..就連 女孩考大學都會收到他鼓勵的卡片

所以雖然女孩已經很久沒見過男孩了但是還都能感受男孩的關懷..只是女孩發現男孩寄給她的信幾乎都是沒有寄信住址的~要不然就是 轉寄的~真是怪了??

彷彿是友人直接把信放在信箱的??..

而且也不曉的為甚麼男孩的朋友們都變的對女孩特別好?

不但生日有禮物還會邀女孩一起出去玩....更甚的只要是男孩的朋友而她是女生的話還會主動邀女孩去逛街.聊天.講電話噓寒問暖 等等..

關懷的舉動...令女孩覺得奇怪但時間一久了女孩也習慣了..

那段日子....她覺得好快樂好幸福..直到..女孩有一天發現男孩很久沒有寄信給他了..她覺得奇怪..但想說算了可能最近男 孩比較忙吧?

但是一個星期過去了女孩還是沒有收到半封信...

她開始慌了..她不知道她為何會慌..只知道她想看男孩的信...

兩年了男孩總是會寫信給女孩..特別是在特別的日子裡總有男孩從遠方捎來暖暖的祝福..陪他繼續走下去..雖然女孩沒辦法回信. .

但是這已經是女孩生活的一部份如今突然間消失了女孩突然發現好像少了一個依靠..女孩開始四處打聽男孩的下落..

到以前男孩常去的咖啡廳.茶店.書店.網咖.一坐.一待就是一整天...
只希望能看到男孩...但是都沒有...
男孩好像就從世上蒸發了..
她抱著最後的希望到了男孩的好朋友的公司...
問男孩的朋友及同事男孩的下落..

男孩的同事中有個女生叫的茹琳被女孩一問竟然哭了..
女孩問茹琳你怎麼了?

男孩的老闆說:喂~~拿去打給這個人吧!!你就知道他去那了...
女孩一看是一張有手機號碼的便條紙.
女孩很開心..心想:總算被我找到了吧!!
女孩打了手機...:喂~~~?

手機那端傳來的是一個男生的聲音.
雖然女孩已經快2年沒見過男孩了.但是她確定電話裡的人不是男孩

女孩說:請問.....
對方還沒聽女孩講完就說:喔..我知道你是誰了... 你找我哥哥的吧?我等你很久了...
你現在有時間嗎?方便出來嗎?我們約個地方祥談吧...
你就會明白的...

女孩一頭霧水的來到和男孩的弟弟約定的地方
女孩一看就知道他的確是男孩的弟弟
因為的確蠻像的...

女孩迫不及待的問:你哥哥呢?

男孩的弟弟沒說話只是靜靜的從手提袋裡拿出一封信...
遞給女孩...

抱歉..其實這封信前幾天就該拿給你了只是我不知道
我應該怎麼拿給你所以才拖到今天....

原來這兩年的信都是你寫給我的?!!女孩驚訝的問...

不不不不!!我只是代我哥哥交給你罷了..

幹嘛那麼麻煩呀?真是的?故作神秘..

女孩雖然嘴中唸唸有詞但是還是難掩臉上的興奮....

打開了信....

嗨~~~ 穗 你最近過的好嗎?

天氣開始轉涼了唷~自己小心身體唷?書讀的如何呢?別太貪玩了知道嗎?

呵呵~把你說的像小孩子一樣..抱歉抱歉..

只是..我真的放心不下你你總是這麼需要人.關心.保護

不過你放心我已經交代我的死黨們要好好照顧你了...

因為在你看這封信的時候我早就到了一個很遠的地方了....

我沒辦法在繼續照顧你了..但我真的放心不下你

所以我用了這個辦法來陪你度過接下來的日子....

希望你不要介意...但是這很可能是我的最後一封信了

因為我的時間到了....

很抱歉我真的不是不想見你..

只是我不願意讓你看到我現在的樣子..

更不希望因為我而讓你傷心難過...

我希望你開開心心的..這是我最大的願望呀..而且也快聯考了呀

如果因為我害你沒考上我大概沒辦法原諒自己

因為這是我的最後要求...

算一算大概有200多封吧?呵呵~希望你不會嫌太囉唆~~

我雖然快離開了...但是我沒有後悔跟你在一起過..

跟你在一起的日子我很開心.....雖然...

你最後不是選擇我...但這樣也好不然我真的不知道怎麼跟你提分手

因為我不想連累你...畢竟這樣的我是不可能給你幸福的.跟你分手

後我的身體越來越差!!到了醫院檢查...

醫生告訴我我只有3個月的壽命了...還好你提早跟我分手了...

不然...呵呵~~~你果然冰雪聰明....

所以我將日子算一算照著年歷寫了200多封的信在叫我弟弟幫我依照

日期寄給你..就好像我還在你身邊陪著你一樣..

算算2年了吧?我想你對我的感覺也比較淡了吧?

應該比較能接受這個事實了吧??

所以我在這時候寫最後一封信

再說我也沒辦法再寫了...

希望你原諒....我不知道這樣對你的影響會不會很大...

如果會..抱歉這次我沒辦法安慰你了....

我只想告訴你我愛你..我恨不得能一輩子照顧你...就算最後你跟另一個

男子攜手走向紅毯的另一端我也希望能繼續當你的朋友.....

但我能嗎?我不能因為上天給我的時間到了...

雖然短促但是我覺得並不後悔...我的人生是完整的...

就像我們的戀情雖然短暫..但是我覺得值得了...

謝謝你陪我談我今生的第一段戀愛..

如果時間能從來我不會去追你...不會愛上你..

過去能從來嗎?不能..所以我還是傷了你....

如果明天的付出..等待..能讓你我長相廝守我一定去做...

但我有明天嗎?沒有..所以我還是會離開你..

如果現在我能無牽無掛的離開人間就表示我已經不再愛你..不再在乎你...

但我眼角的眼淚已經告訴我我放不下你..

所以是的我.愛.你......

不要為我哭因為愛過你我很幸福...

割斷一段因緣很簡單...只要忘記思念的方法就可以了

所以忘了我吧....

愛你的奈落neron 2001/9/21 奇美醫院

女孩看著信上的時間是他們分手的一個月後....

也是她跟他說:這跟你沒關係的隔天......

那天天氣轉涼了....秋天到了

那晚在台南的3皇3家門口 一個女孩抱著一封信

痛哭失聲.....

Anderson Junior College

It's probably a very bad bad timing for me to pen down my thoughts,

since its like exactly 1 week to the first Alevel paper.

But any delay i will never get this post done.

So yeah, i feel like i need to make a recount on my very special 2 years of my life.

That's right, it's been an amazing time in AJC that i think i will never find it elsewhere.

Before i continue, i got to admit, i did not spend my academic time well in AJ.

It's gonna be a prick but i cannot look back now.

This post will be all about the happy things i've done and i think they can partly

able to compensate for the opportunity cost of studying.

So because of the happy things, I never regretted coming to AJ.

(Regardless of the fact that i would have chosen poly life given a chance to rewind)

It all rolls back in time to 2009 December.

I felt so carefree after the Olevel thinking its life again for me.

But hell no, the next morning after the last paper i was screamed at by my mum,

to FIND A JOB.

FML siriusly.

So coincidentally i got a job offer from Mel and there goes my hols *poof*

Took a couple of jobs before the olevel results is back.

Did average, compared to my classmates with all the distinctions.

I got 7 too but not many A1.

Oh ya, and i sat near this dudette called HHT who can't stop moaning and groaning.

Or more significantly, whining.

Even told to her to choose a different JC

(Enough of talking behind her back, you'll know why later)

Nevermind, so i didn't manage to qualify for VJC (which i aimed for).

Didn't even want to go RJ, HCI or NJ cos its not my type.

So was pondering over, trying my luck at VJC, AJC, TJC and NYJC.

blablablablabla the waiting for posting period....

*fast forward*

i was actually quite happy to receive the sms at 6.04am

when they announce that i got posted to AJC.

Haha lots of friends in AJC! yay, right choice eh? (that's what i thought at that point)

HHT came to the same school, gosh, talk about telling her to choose another JC...

Can't wait and immediately discussed with the two Nic to take same bus.

First day of Orientation, win, i woke up late and had to lie to the Nics cos they left first.

(yes, i lied about something i can't remember that gave me an excuse to wake up late)

So its the funky and quite low profile Orientation compared to other college.

but the programme within college was not bad and the OG mates made it fun XD

Cool ppl like WeiXuan, Joe Wei, Samuel and many others.

Oh and HHT became classmates.... -.- (i can visualise her angst if she sees this)

So after that period of slackness i couldn't really adapt to JC life.

Like seriously when do i ever need to listen to a lecture in my past 16 years?

So LECTURES=SLEEP and TUTORIALS=BLANK

Sucks man, this leads to my downfall, wait i decided not to say academics right?

Then came the chance to choose CCA.

Time for some truth and truth~

OK my choices are (not that i can actually qualify though) between:

Hockey, Soccer (no hope lah)
Harmonica (The only thing i know other than Recorder <- fail)

Students' Council, CXtreme

And you know the story, SC i chose.

Kinda daring for me to take on this path again.

SLB had been a rollercoaster in XMS already...

I took up the challenge and stood by council!

Started out with a mindset that i can make it a super cool and fun place.

It did turn out to be fun but i still don't think we are cool enough.

*awkward moment when a 27th reads this*

Of couse i enjoyed it.

Wanted to be a crazy house captain but after the nominees period.

I find that that is not what i really want.

I need to get down to some serious business by doing something not seriously.

What i mean is that i don't like to do very go-by-the-book stuff.

So i reckon Marketing to be my cup of tea.

It did entice me during the nominees period too :)

So there i go, became the Market 'boss'.

The very crude type of market, not the stock or commercial market,

those you see PRC selling vegeterrible and pork.

Kerkyturkey likes to call me 'boss'. *awkward cos idk how to react to it*

So i tell myself,

AJC is so freaking borrrrrrrring, thats what they said.

I gotta try to make this place less of a muggish prison.

Haha there goes my crazy ambitions.

A list of crazy changes i planned initially:

1.Make every monday a DJ song dedication morning

(FAIL, cos tried before and DJ did it badly)

2.Convert the canteen to some music hub

(FAIL, c'mon we in AJ, we don't spend on ourselves. #NonMihiSolum)

3.Plan AJ Idol and make it into a pop star show

(Plan it, done it, tried it, Pop star considered, you decide how well i fare)

4.Do some crazy idea to make AJ culture a more lively one.

(Proposed it, approved, executed it, you decide how well i fare)

5.Think of some mega milestone to propose to school, just like the NEXUS and Brolly Area.

(FAIL, too much things to do, too little manpower and time)

6.Make a super ultra cool Orientation video

(Not entitled to the opportunity but glad to be involved partly)

Other things that i didn't plan to do but glad i did them were:

Orientation OGL

YOG Volunteers

Open House and CCA Carnival for Council

Emcee during Bicultural Exchange

Various events

So this are the events that i basically covered over the 2 years.

What about the people?

You know i suck at this kinda lovey dovey stuff.

I cherish all my friends but its just not me to think of mega tons of messages

to thank them for being by my side.

So let me just name out a few that stayed with me and make the biggest impact k?

86 Gang peeps: Chris Tan, Kristen and Eunice. More than awesome gang.

Darren Leong, good friends since secondary school,

words just can't describe how awesome a friend he is and how impt he is.

Axel, he let me believe fellow slackers do exist but we are not trashes.

Kerk, Lynn, Sherry, Epichua, CF and AJI comm, without them i'm crap.

Without their support i'm just a headless chicken with crazy ideas as big as Kim Jung il.

Mos burger peeps, TKY, Joann, Kimchi, Turtle, for making after council event so gossipful.

Xinhui and Diwa for helping me in class cos im the biggest douche u can find in terms

of remembering to do my homework.

Nicholas Tan, for being the super funny friend that few ppl actually know about.

Ms Zhu, super understanding and the most strong-minded teacher ever (ironwoman)

Mr Seng, the teacher who gave me approval and recognition to my crazy ideas.

Ms Jeannie Chew, the 'badass' teacher who taught me the most things in council/outside world and for being the number one supporter (and sponsor) of AJI.

Ms Lee, for a very lazy student like me, i don't know how she resist herself from slapping me.

Enough shit, this is basically my two years in AJC, fruitful? Certainly.

Regrets in coming AJ? No

Choose AJ again? Erm, no. Oops.

Pieces don't fit anymore

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

I don't know why

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Anywhere for you

I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to

I'd walk halfway around the world
For just one kiss from you
Far beyond the call of love
The sun, the stars, the moon
As long as your love's there to lead me
I won't lose my way believe me
Even through the darkest night you know

Chorus:
I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
Your love as far as I can see
Is all I'm ever gonna need
There's one thing for sure
I know it's true
Baby, I'd go anywhere for you

I used to think that dreams were just
For sentimental fools
And I'd never find someone
Who'd give their love so true
But I knew the very minute
Couldn't live my life without you in it
And now I want the whole world
To know

Chorus
Hey baby, hey baby, hey baby, oohhh
Chorus

Story of Love

Derrick Ho.

Prelimsssss

2 papers left to end of Prelims.

This Prelim is a bad one for me.

Not going to elaborate further cos the results speaks for itself.

I shall talk about whats coming up. :D

Thursday, soccer after chem paper.

Woots, thats gonna be enjoying life man.

Perhaps the last time i gonna play soccer in field for a long time.

After that going to Darren Leong's house with TJ, Eunice and Joey.

Hehe, thats a surprise/secret.

Friday, meeting up with Bryan and Kathy.

Gonna settle some video equipments and the wedding programme.

Hopefully can have the cameras and laptop all ready.

I'm gonna be so stress taking the videos during the actual day itself!

Saturday, the WEDDING of Timothy and Zike.

Ok apparently they are friends of Darren (not Leong) who is a friend of Bryan.

Bryan gonna be the wedding dinner programme planner as well as emcee.

Kathy will be the assistant and liaison while i'm the videographer.

Will need to take video of everything!

That includes the bride make up,

the groom and his brudders travelling to the brides house at amk.

After that go to hotel to film the ROM service.

I gotta chiong the editing after that (around 1pm)

Wonder if i will have free lunch. HEHE. ok random.

Have to show the video to the groom and bride at 5pm.

Very nervous cos it requires 2 hours to render a high quality 10mins video.

So i prepared to use my sis macbook so that it can be faster.

May need to edit after they see. Means another 2 hours of rendering.

The ceremony starts at around 7 and i have to film the pre-dinner cocktail.

As well as video the signing in of guests, the stage where couple cut the cake

and the champagne ceremony, the first dish presentation, the Yum Seng,

the MCs, the guests of each dining table, the speech of bride and groom,

farewell when guests leave the hotel etc.

Woo all the way till 10.30pm.

Gotta process the video, and show the couple on next Monday.

Wish me luck for my exciting week ahead!